It’s not even about being my mom. I’m so far passed that. It’s about being a person who can feel something (ANYTHING!) other than egotistical selfishness. I honestly don’t understand how a person like me could possibly come from a person like her. I give her chance after chance after chance to change and not say something ridiculous for once, and she always goes in the other direction. Tonight, I was telling her about something I’m genuinely happy about and she just… ugh… she reacted in a way that made me so mad and sad that I cried on the drive home. And I could tell that she wasn’t just talking out of her ass. Her reaction was so damn honest that I could feel her words and sighs just punching me in the heart. I haven’t cried that much since the day I realized that Josh and I were over. I’m not even on my period. I can’t even talk to her anymore. She makes me so sad.