It’s Saturday night and all I want to do right now is apply to jobs and research schooling options. I feel so motivated! I feel like myself again! I can’t even begin to conjure up the words to explain what it’s like to lose yourself to something unknown. Well, I think I found what that something was. I was on a certain birth control for the past seven months and this period of time was pretty much when everything seemed uncontrollable. I had no idea that the birth control was even a factor, so I was basically fighting a battle against the wrong nemesis. All this time, I thought it was myself. But luckily, this idea sparked in my mind and I decided to take myself off that birth control in hope that it could’ve been the cause. A month and a half later, I’m feeling, not good as new, but good as old… and I couldn’t be happier. I feel in control. I feel aware. I feel strong. I feel driven. I feel present.
The moral of this story is: avoid hormonal birth control. AND don’t give up. There’s always a solution that you may not notice immediately.